Chance takers & heartbreakers.

Putting all my heart into this , you can tell I've never wanted anything so bad.
If I didn't love you and care so much , I would just use this time to move on.
But that's not the way that it is darling.
I've never gave anyone my heart.
I've never let someone do this to me.

I've never gave my all ,
Just to get absolutely nothing back.

I start to question , does love ever last ?

I'm taking so many chances on you
And if I never have you again ,
I'll know that it was love that got the best of me.
I would rather it be that then something else.

I'm so glad that you aren't with her anymore.
But you said it's my fault.
I won't be upset about that ,
I don't want you with anyone else <3
-we belong together-

I want you , and I only you.
Forever and for always.

Tragedy at it's finestt.

While I have so much hope that we will be together again soon ,
I still feel like I'll be forced to move on - without you.
That eats me up inside.
Every second.
Of everyday.
No one can really ever understand just how much my heart aches ,
Karen is the exception. Her words let me know she knows exactly what I'm feeling. She's in pain , just as much as I am. The only difference , is that mine is freshly laying on my heart. But it's nice to know I'm not alone in all of this. <3
but what burns is that's supposed to be you.
You're supposed to be there for me when my heart is breaking so that you can keep the pieces together.
But somehow I feel that in your eyes , you don't owe a thing to me. I feel like I'm nothing to you anymore. That eats me up inside.
I understand I lost so many rights , all that time ago. But you know I wish I hadn't.
I miss you more than you could ever know.
And I could never stop loving you <3

youre not alone.

It's a shame things didn't work out with this guy I had a crush on. I still have my crush and while I wishhhh itd go somehwere , I know it won't. He's intrested , but not enough. How typical.
But while that is okay with me , this constant heartbreak is not. What burns the most , is that it's by the same person. The person who's supposed to love me most -
"I love you so much , you are the love of my Life! I <3 you"
[that's what he wrote to me]
now look at it all.
I wake up every morning with an instant heartache.
I go through my day , holding back each and every tear on the verge of falling.
And then at night , it all feels as though it gets worse.
It's hard to get to sleep , and even harder to awake.
My dreams are my safe haven <3
you're never there ,
so I know it's a break from all my aching.
Problem is , I have to wear myself out just to get to sleep.
I feel so alone. I need you by my side like you used to be. <3
I knew that once I started loving you , I'd never stop.
I gave myself to you.
Mind , soul , heart and body.
I can never take any of that back , nor do I want to.

Even though you still have that strong love ,
I feel like I love you more.
Why do I say this ?
Because you're hurting me. And you know it.
You might have good intentions for yourself ,
But not me it seems.
When you love someone , you're supposed to do whatever you can to make them happy. Even if they hurt you. You know I never meant to. And the part that kills me , is that you know I'm sorry. You know I want to make it up to you. But you say you've changed. So have I. That has nothing to do with "us". We will always be the same. Loving , caring , passionate , fun , amazing , PERFECT. <3

It was clear to me after two weeks that I loved you.
I fell for you so fast and I didn't hold back. I felt no reason to. I saw you for who you are and you saw exactly who I was.
We are still these people. We still love each other all the same as we did in the beginning.
I'll never be able to say I don't love you.
Because when you truly love someone , it's forevery sweetheart :,)

I just don't know how to go on.
How in the world can someone go on , when they've lost the perfection they once had.
I know that you're the one I'll always want , so what am I supposed to do now ..

I cry. Karen says it's okay. She says , "don't hold back any of your tears , just let them fall , because keeping them locked up inside is only gonna make the pain worse."
So you tell me , is it okay to cry every second of every day ?
Because if I'm not , I still feel like I am.
Every moment that passes , I can feel my heart breaking.
Itd be a little better to say it's already broken , because then I'd feel like soon enough it'll be put back together ,
But it's breaking more every day.
I've never felt so much aching in my heart.

So tell me , will I ever be better ?

<3.